Duality

True story- sometimes things just suck.

I was in a really bad mood earlier-

worst mood in forever...

and pondered how to shift it 🤔

Then realized that I shouldn’t.

It’s been a long time since I’d felt such a strong sense of “fuck all of this” 😡

Things have been a mess.

Messy in a way that’s sticky and comes undone.

Like syrup dripped on your hand wash only sweater but not as sweet 😮

Messy where everything takes ten more steps than it needs to.

Like when old plumbing breaks and you end up having to replace the damn wall. 😐

Am I hormonal?

Probably.

Are my overactive empath feelers gunking me up with other people’s gack?

Probably.

Is the astrology wonky?

Isn’t it always?

But why must this shit be so hard??? Because I live in the third dimension.

And here- it’s all about duality and choice.

If things never sucked- I wouldn’t know how great they can be.

If life was never hard- I wouldn’t appreciate the feeling of ease when I’m in the flow.

If things never got stuck we wouldn’t have lube!

Wait, what???
Sorry, I digress... I thought of the “motivation scene” in Fight Club where Tyler fake holds up the convenience store clerk: “The question, Raymond, is what did you want to be?”

And how Raymond’s breakfast will taste better than anything I have experienced...

And to allow the ability to let that that does not matter to truly slide.

It put it all into perspective for me. 😎

So what do I want to be?

The one who experiences life with all its weirdness, synchronicities and ups & downs. 🤓

To have faith in the process and trust in my abilities 🙏

I want to have the magic in me with just enough madness sprinkled in to keep it real 💜🔮💜
How bout you?

What do you want to be?

*orignal post on IG 2.4.20